how life has been and wake up calls

Hey guys.. How have u all been? I hope, with god’s grace you are living a good life.. Well I haven’t been blogging for some time. Well life has changed dramatically. Finishing college , and leaving to india for dentistry.. Never had the time to sit and think what to blog. Lol.
Anyways, let be brief on what happened on the past 6 months my life..I left to india on the end of august. Did last minute packing, and was on the phone 24-7 the day before I left. I finally called he "boom boom pow" of mine. Lol. It was so "omg" but fun.. Also, was on the phone with besties, evon, cheryl and angie.. Had the queen talks and did cry of course. They're like the best friends ever. Had so much of fun, so much of times we laughed, and the real brilliant ones who has no attitude at all. They're so unlike some bitches and bastards who shows off like fuck with their little knowledge. I so care a damn to these kinda people. So, I left to india. A complete different environment it was. The atmosphere, smell of ammonia, the food, and the people. Haiz. Anyway I knew the reason why I came and I told myself whatever happens, I'm going to bear it fro the next 5 years. My "sweetheart" that I came after went back to malaysia that time. So I bared a month myself. Became independent, learned to wash clothes, eat whatever I had, and of course made new friends. Then on 22 september, the "person", I came after came back. Wow, felt like all the hard work I went through paid off. Was so so so happy. We met, I gave the teddy bear, and the box of chocs I bought. The person asked, "that’s all ke". I was like wait la.. Lol. I was really very happy. Had the same feeling when I got straight As for the public exams. Then life went on. Culturals. Had a good time in sports. Table tennis, basketball, and chess. Emerged as best player in chess. Then, me and "the person" went out for the first time. Went for lunch on a Saturday noon at 4 pm. Went to porur junction, but sadly the shop was closed. "Malunyer". I was the one who suggested the place. Then, "the person" suggested to go to coffee day in mega mart. Then we went. It was also teruk there. We ordered some chicken sandwich, brownies and lemon tea. I couldn’t even eat. I was feeling a bit akward la.. Going out with "4 azam" for the first tiem after 6 years. Oh my oh my. All my frens in Section 5 will know how much it means to me. So life went on. We went out many times, had many catdog fights. Fought everyday.. We were so close to each other. I thought life couldn’t be even more beautiful. My bday came up. "my person" wished me at 11.57 pm, 3 minutes before my bday. Smsed me la. I mmg expected for the msg to come, but the scenario was a bit cold cause we had a fight a few days before that.. Anyway, I went to church that morning, came to class, got screwed by IK maam. But anyway I felt a bit happier. Then by the time night came, me and the love of my life got over it. Love called me and we spoke and settled it. I was very very happy.. Then life is going on now.. Well I did have some problem cause of my classmate. Her name is vedipta. I got mad at her for what she did, when I helped her so much. Anyway its over, im not mad at her anymore. Then came another problem with a girl in class. Haiz. It was even more saddening cause it was money issue. I am so not gonna take part in culturals anymore. Fuck off fashion show, fuck off dance and fuck off anything that has to do with "anjing betina of phoenix" who is the root of all the problem.. Anyway, I'm a strong person. I know how to manage things well. Yes of course I lost my temper, but now things are gonna totally be under my control. Its my life, and I don’t need people telling me what to do. I accomplished so much in life so I know exactly what to do, and when to do what . I appreciate everyone's feedback on how I should behave, but oh my why don’t they just let me live. I don’t need permission to make my own decision, so hell yeah.. I have my own branded attitude, and that’s my prerogative. And, yeah another thing, if any of my photos or videos comes up with funny captions, or being associated with anyone or anything, then you have to see my true colors.How jobless and useless people can get?! I wanna live my life, on my own accord. Since some people are so interested in knowing whom I hang around with, on whom I go out with, here let me let you know what im so interested about and please leave me alone, let me do what I like, treat me as invisible, and just stop talking about me. You're just wasting your time… What I'm currently interested in is :

A) Sleeping
B) Studying whenever I'm free
C) Spending time with the love of my life who I came after all the way
D) Being on the phone with my mom and dad
E) Going to church

That’s all ! That’s all and that’s all.. So please guys and girls, leave me alone, I will not bother u in any way, let me live my life on how I want to like how I mentioned above ok? Thank you, may we go as brothers and sisters in the way of god. God bless.

I havent took my heart back : Part 4

Hello people.. Hope you are living a blessed life with god’s grace. Everything happens so fast. I’m not very happy actually. I mean.. Since college life ended. Nothing’s great about lincoln. First semester was rather dull and boring. Beginning of second semester was even worst. Nothing. But after the day my ‘lincoln love’ smiled at me one day when we bumped, my whole life changed. That smile was so pure, that said ‘hey’ was so real. I sakit hati la.. i really miss my ahem ahem. You know why i’m not actually telling who is that ahem ahem? I know everyone (my friends) are curious to know.. But you know circumstances.. When the time comes i will definitely tell. My lincoln ahem and me are keeping in touch. Cant really explain what touch we are keeping. Haha. No worries. Its just over phone.. Only smses. Of course, ‘love’ called many times. I wouldn’t answer.. scared to talk la.. I keep saying when the time comes, i seriously dunno when the time will come, but i promise to you and my J1 love, i’m not joking and i’m serious about this. This is no puupy nor kitten thing. When i say i’m aware of what i’m doing, i’m aware. I really thank god for allowing me to go lincoln, though many will raise their eyebrows hearing this. Lincoln system sucks, but the people i met definitely made me live. I love each and everyone of you, and i swear i love my J1 boom boom pow. I can cry when i hear the song, though its a rock rNb genre, but every word of it reminds me of how i used to look at my lincoln love. I’m not obsessed, i’m not desperate, i’m inlove................ And, my love is, a Jungle crossing resident. Apply a little IQ, and your creativity, the resident is a name of a place in malaysia. And, in Malaysia, the language used to describe places most commonly is __________ language, So translate, and course, you will know where the person is staying now. And yes, the state where the person is staying, is a very unique state. With two MB’s and two speakers. J Having said that, you’re very much closer to know who the person is, of course if you know the person’s background a little. Good day.

I haven't took my heart back : part 3

Hey guys. Well this is another blog about a dilemma i'm going through. Well as you all know, if you have been folowing my blog, its about someone i'm having a crush on in my class, and i have no guts on making any moves. I really really really like this person. Maybe its not deep love, cause this just started since the end of may 2009, but its definitely deep liking. I mean, can you imagine. This person came in my dreams for the past weeks continuosly. Be it an noon nap, or late night snoring one. My god... It all ended when i kept in touch with my "old friend who is studying in meenakshi university-old history" history is old ryte? whatever. Damn la. Lepas tu, that someone never come in my dream already. I feel so sad la. I mean atleast i was seeing the person in my dreams. And now, even that also takde. I really like this person la. I really am thankful to god for allowing this person to be a part of my life. It means the world to me. Its so unlike my "old friend". My "old friend" we... I don't deny that i love this person la. I mean in terms of good friend, and stuff, yea definitely. But its hard for me now to like my "old friend". Course, the attitude, the level of rudness, and stuff. L is a nice person, but sometimes too rude. Too self centred. This is fact la. How much can i tolerate? Maybe the love hasn't gone away, but the likings have definitely vanished long time ago. To be frank, i don't like L anymore. Love yes, got la a bit which i think is going to go off soon also. Well i know i have struggled all the way, just to go to meenakshi university, but i don't have the liking anymore. All my likings, all my thoughts, all my attention to, is only to my new "ahem ahem" from J1 in lincoln. OMG.

A message to my lincoln love,

Sweet, i really miss you. I miss miss miss miss you. Miss yo damn lotsa much. You are my boom boom pow. I really cant get you out of my head la. I really like you. You are so likable. So nice to walk with. I really miss the day when you and me were on the train.Actually to be honest, that day i didnt have to go to the place. I simply made up a story saying i need to go and see darren at kepong to do presentation. Darren was waiting for me at cerf room to do presentation. Do you know that? I just wanted to talk to you. I never dreamed of walking with you. It was "O MY GOD"... I so LOVE YOU. I hope you will be always blessed in RSMU.. Made the biggest mistake by not registering to RSMU.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

J1 2009

J1 2009
Hie my beloved readers,Thanks for browsing through my page. This blog is dedicated to all the J1 students in lincoln college of the year 2009. I would like to express my gratitude and love to each and every J1's for everything. I had another great chapter of my life and with all of you, it was never better. Without further elaborations, i would like to express my views on every friend of mine in J1. Have fun reading.So, lets start with the left row.

Wong - you are a bright girl, with a doctor look, and i rather call u phenylketonuria. Cause you stole my presentation title. Haha. So, pls dont do it in russia ar.. Haha. Jk.

Clara- you are a very sweet looking chindian girl and very friendly. Thats why jeremy still after you. Hehe. Wish u all the best with "ahem ahem".. He is really notty and but i like him lots too.. friends ni..

Amy- This maths freak, need to get some air. She does maths all the time. Scary. Well, u need to talk more definitely.

Shawn- hey why u always hang with us ar?? You did any transplant? haha.. jK. love u shawny. I really do shawn.

Sri Ekha- Sri aku akan bunuh kau kalau aku jumpa kau kat mana mana. Kau ponteng class giler teruk. Bila aku tanya kata ada hal.. Ada apa hal la?????

Kong Wai- God of maths, goat of chemistry.. haha. That was by miss kho.. hehe.

Danny- Danny u really look like u dunno anything (meaning in girls stuff) but you do know ALOT. haha..

Darren - Ahem.. Cheryl r u reading this? Darren, well, my presentation group member, very nice, very kind, and very sweet. A true gentleman. I miss u tho..

Melvin - The way he laugh (sucks big time). haha. melvin is a very nice friend who is very verynice to my another friend. Ahem. Did u do the farewell for her anyway?? what happened to the card?

Izreender- Hmm.. She hardly comes to college and i never heard her voice. I mean course i did but she rarely speaks. So... I'll see you around gurl ;p

Chermaine- Ah yes. She is a very ambitious girl. I like her confidence when she presents. Impressive.

Vivian- I wish to get to know u more. Is a good friend.

Bownie- Hey you!!! i see you anywhere kena lah u. always tease ppl.. match maker no 1.. haha. But bownie is very smart, and really stylish. All of us think she is the most trendy one in J1.

Pui Xin- She is really very very feminine. And i prefer her to be with her ex bf.. He's really nice. Come on girl !! You need to get him back.

Dimple - No 1. Blur, No 2 weird, No 3 annoying (in a sweet way). Dimple i want you to know u r a very nice girl, and very naive. Pls grow up. You may surf www. _____.com Pls ask cheryl to fill in the blanks. She knows all the websites. :p :p

Tuvija - she has the qualities of a bos. I mean she can lead a group. (complete sarcasm)

Nandhini- nandy gal, u r stylish, and you have ur brand new attitude. You have yr own issues, so we know we gotta get our tissues. Haha.

Kaveenah- The girl with really long hair, is very good in directing people, ktm in specific. She will really be a good tour guide. ( oops i hope she is not reading this). haha. R u using the body shop thing anyway? smells good ryte? :)

Sangeetha- Naren's gf. A bit childish course and the way she laughs is like a kid. However never under estimate her capabilities. She's smart course.

Anand- Our Mr will smith. Cheryl talks about u alot at times. We think you're macho. yea baby. come on. You need a shades. We were gonna ask u out actually. I mean me and my girlfriends la. You are really HOT ROD.

Rishi- The next samy velu. Mr thava once said rishi will make a good politician. Cause he smiles all the time for no reason.

Ravind- Ravind is a nice guy, who can dance really well. Hey, teach me la when you free. He can moon walk.

Dalvin- Kareena Kapoor of Malaysia. She's really pretty and makes a good big sis.

Balwin - Dalwin's twin sister. Always regards me as "einstein". i am course. Haha.. She is very a very nice girl.

Nushan- Miss Fatima's pet. Haha. So u couple with murvin ar?

Purni - Macha, when wanna wear jersey? This gurl damn gempak and is capable of punching anyone anytime. Beware. But she tames down when it comes to guys from inti college. ahem. eheh.. dei sorry la we couldnt make it to yr party. Really sorry la wei.

Vinosha- vino.... U r such a lovely azagiya tamil magal. eh not tamil, telugu. hehe.

Venusre - burrrrp. nextVishalini- ooo.. she has lotsa admirers. Why? she is pretty la..

Sundeep- king of crap. very funny. ver very very funny. Ei sundeep, we miss u la.

Sukhveer- ei, how la you get ur gf? She is so pretty. U jampi her ar? another thing, u never intro me to that singh guy also... haha. NOTHING ITCHING ! SLAP U.

Yugesh- yugesh is weird on his own ways. cheryl knows why. legend. i mean legendary. haha. Yugesh loves attention.. but i admit la, yr not bad looking. And yea, u called me the other day for d ahem ahem thing right.. apa jadi??

Wilson- u miss cheryl right?? call her la.. what else. Miss teasing you..

Jin Hong- Mr handsome!!!!

Ian- I hate u ian for what u did in secret recipe on the last day. GRRRRR!!!!Heng Siong- Would like to get to know u. Cheryl said u r a genius.

Deviniya- Hey gurl... i miss ur gang la... I hope u'll have fun in bali. miss all the gossips and jokes la..

Deenisha- U too.. miss all the jokes. we had so much of laughs. i wanna cry d....... miss u all... u r a super nice girl. U have my attitude. Haha.

Prashant- Why you keep changing phone ar? jealous la.. I also want!! haha...

Rubaiyini- always get confused with your name.. Very soft spoken and has her own issues.

Kelvinah- We are hi byes.. get it? haha.

Jeremy vijay- penang fella, and he has lotsa knowledge on everything. Will miss u jeremy especially the times we kicked you outta the lift. Sorry u know.... U OWE me mcd’s ice cream.

Prakash- So whats ur hairstlye now? Hey prakash miss yr craps la.. prakash........ i feel like saying something but its just not there yet..... haha.

Theeban- erm... you club often ar? Intro to my gang pls.. No RUM jungle, or zouk. Perhaps mist? U been there?

Naren- NAREN!!!!!! We all love you! And we miss you. Naren... yr the best la.... i mean we cannot find another u. Keep sangeetha happy k? U guys damn ideal.

And finally, my queens...

Queen of OMG - Evon.Evon, u r dearly missed by all of us. Wish you the very best is ireland. u r the purest bitch among the four of us. Haha. We miss yr english. will never forget how u gave sundeep in the lift. haha. i hope you got over ______. Did u gurl? tell us about it ya?

Queen of WTH - Angie.Angie, our mentor. Very knowledgable and is really really daring. Will neverforget how you shouted to shit face during the presentation. U go girl. WTH??!!! ahha... angie you are our group leader. Meaning yr the queen of queens.

Queen of WHAT - CherylU need to drink milk rather than sitting infront of the computer. You need some height. Haha. The one i'm closest with in lincoln. You're the best despite your height. haha. Cheryl.... yr one of the best friend i ever had. Yr like very compromising and “go with the flow” type. Yea baby. Hey we need to club la.!!!

Hey guys. I hope u all had fun reading. I’m really sorry if i have missed anyone out. And yes, my lincoln love is definitely someone up there. Well, you can guess. Drop by comment yea? Love ya’ll. MuaXxxXiee..

I haven't took my heart back : part 2

Hey.............. i miss you la. Can't believe it myself. Its not a random crush. Its.. gosh.... You were with me for the past 7 months and i didn't make any move??? You walked with me, you were in the same class with me, the next door during exam, went on the same lift with me after class, was in 4th floor with your gang, just a few rows away from my gang during lunch time for the exam week, you looked at me, your eyes gazed at mine, your moved beside me and i didnt talk to you much when i had all the golden opportunities to speak to you??!!? i just kept shutting my mouth when i wanted to say so much to you?? aiyo kadavuley!!! God.. i prayed to you everyday so the last week in lincoln would be a very memorable one for me to spend with _____. And when you gave me all the opportunities i did nothing? I was......

too shy la..........

Aiyo.. Aiyo... I wanna cry already la...

When am i gonna see you again. Gosh, i really like you la. I cant believe it.. Aiyo !!!! I screwed up. Should have talked to you la. Aiyoooo!!!!!!!!!! sobzZ.

Now that you're no more within my eyes, and you will be leaving soon, so i will be... What can i do my lovely dear? Cant believe i was so gut-less.

I miss you, and i swear upon me, my dog, and my room, and my desktop, my mp3, my ipod, my handphone, my nike shoes, my handbags, etc etc,

I LOVE YOU.

How i spend my sunday

Well, since i'm just fresh outta exams i have lotsa time to lepak in every corner of my house, spend more time with my dog, and hear more songs, get more sleep and in the midst of getting myself to uni.. Today i woke up at 7 am, not suprising cause i'm used in waking up early. Brownie as usual, still snoring. Everyone was asleep. Well cause we went to sunset mass on saturday night. Then, i brushed my teeth, made a cup of coffee, with 2 potato breads, took "Tennis inside and out" magazine and headed to the swing which is located outside my house. The whole neighbourhood seemed quiet except for my front neigbhour whose house is filled with zombies. After finishing, came back in headed to my parents room cause my aunty texted me asking whether my family is going to my grandma's place. When i went to my parents room, the door was locked, but i managed to open the window and i called my mom, no answer, my dad, no answer. However i could see both of them were in deep sleep. Romantic deep sleep. Haha.. As people get older they have more mutual feelings ar? My parents are like newly weds these days. Weird. Haha. Fed up, i took the car keys, and headed to buy newspaper. Came back, they were still sleeping. I took the flower basket, went to my garden to pluck flowers. I plucked and plucked and plucked. It never seemed to stop. Too many. My mom always said there will be lotsa flowers when anyone in the family is having exams. So yea, thats true cause i had exams for the whole last week. After 15 minutes, while still plucking my mom came and said, hey sweet thanks for plucking the flowers. I was like yeah. At 9.30 a.m, i left the house to send my sis to cathecism class. Reached church at 9.45 am. Vanes called me, cause she saw my car and asked my to lepak with them in mamak's. So we lepaked there with gabri. Talking stories about their boyfriends. And on how we pranked sherwin. Rodney's next. Haha. I couldnt hang that long as my mom gave me a long marketing list. Went to market bought all sorta taufu's, fruits etc etc. I hate taufu's anyways. Then had to fetch my sis from class. When we headed back home, vanes and me had some sorta racing. Which was lame. Cause she kept switching lane. Then balik, had to wait for my mom to cook. Mom cooked fish soup. Was nice actually with some corn chips. Then watched tv and some more tv and soem more tv. CSI's, tamil movies. And finally now blogging. I had a good day. Thank god. God bless, have a good day.

I haven't took my heart back

My heart's not with me. Haha. Lame, i mean, of course its still there, pumping and relaxing, but what i'm trying to say is i kinda lost my heart to someone. Again?! I admit this is not the first time. I mean come on, living in urban areas will somehow make you look at people and eventually have a crush on. However, i believe seriously this is not only crush. It has love in it too. Well because what i feel is like to be really good to this person. Be as NICE as possible before we both leave to our universities. Okay, i'll give you a little hint on who this person is. We are from the same class, J1 in college. The person is going to russia. Well i came to blog today not to actually state who is the person, but to let out my feelings that has a composition of love, misses, sadness and happiness all out. The last 5 days i spend with the person in lincoln was too good. I felt i had the time of my life. Well during the exam week, i kept my eyes on the person. But we were in different classes. I felt it was cruel in a way cause two days before exam when i went to church, i prayed to god hoping the person and myself will be in the same class. However we were not. I didnt get too upset instead i took it as a god's blessings. Well that will keep me more focused during the exam. But god did grant me something. The person was in the next class. So, i mean i will still get to see the person before exam and that gave me a little boost to do well in exam. With my heart pounding and my eyes jolting out when i saw my new sweetheart, i constantlty told myself to keep my emotions low. I have full contol of myself, so i know how to handle my emotions. I am a devoted person. I'm very well behaved in front of the person. Control la. Haha. And yea, another thing, i love the BEP's boom boom pow. My heart boom boom pow's whenever i see the person. During the exam week, i had my mp3 on me all the time. And i was listening to boom boom pow. Well the reason is, when i see the person and i hear the song, i feel so great. I really like the person la. At this point of time, i feel all my love is only for that someone. It started in the last weeks of may. I dont know how i could be so blind before this. I dunno what i was doing for the past five months when the first day i went to c0llege i got to know this person that is on the January 6, 20o9. My instinct told me that i would like this person because the person was not bad looking. But i didnt bother the look at that time. I didn't even care. Partially cause of the person's gang and stuff. However after the incident on friday on the last week of may, made my heart to stop for a beat and think about this person. And i got the answer not too late. The answer was, "yes the person is in my heart".

A message to my love :

I dunno if you are reading this. And you wouldn't even know if its you. But if you know me, and if you have sensed whatever we have been through in the last 5 days in lincoln, you will know who you are. I gave u, a toblerone chocolate which i gave alot of people also. I know it will be hard for you to know whether its you. Another hint, i messaged you on friday night (July 10 2009) The message was wishing you good luck in your future university which you didnt reply, i dunno why, and made me keep on checking my phone the whole saturday morning. I also, dunno if that's your number because i got the number from my friend who is also your friend. I know i have tangled things so much, that you wouldn't know if its you. But sweetheart, i want you to know that you are my boom boom pow, now and always. A final hint, we spend lotsa time in the lift, almost everyday. I miss you love.